213-DU WERDEST EINE KRANKENSCHWESTER BRAUCHEN

That was truely the most bizarre thing a friend has ever asked me to do for them.

My cat was laying on my stomach last night when it started to kneed at my nipple and my groin. It was with a sad sort of irony when I realized that it was the first time either of those areas had been touched by a female in a very long time.

Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll Burn it all down
As my anger rains



Well tonight was kind of fun. With about 3 people I drank 12 pictures and ate about 140 wings, so not too bad all things considered.

Yet somehow there seems to be something wrong. Tonight I was continuously told about how pettily stupid women are, and I tried to argue. But I'm not sure if I should have. I did indeed witness something that was demonstrating exactly what I was being told and there wasn't a whole lot I could say against it. If it was a true example of what women think then they are indeed self centered and petty among other things. Tonight I told a guy that I had invited a girl along to hang out and he was afraid to acknoledge her existence for fear that his girlfriend might realize she was attractive. And she she did, and my lack of tact in the matter seemed to start things. Personally I thought it was stupid though.

Not that guys are exempt from generalities similar to this. They can be incredibly dumb but as a guy I'm more able to view the stupidity of the other gender.

Now if girls are really as dumb as I've been shown then I'm starting to be less then sorry about my inability to pick them up because doing so will just lead to nagging the likes of which I haven't seen since I moved out of my moms house. And worse.

So why are beautiful girls so insecure? I don't get it, I've never been more then slightly insecure and I'm certainly about as far from beautiful as people get. So why? Can somebody explain it too me or is it one of those things that just can't be explained, like the Yeti, or how Moncton is the place to be?


I saw a girl from SJA today, Megan, who was in My Town, she was a waistress at Alehouse. That was kind of neat, she should have been our waitress so I could have tipped her great. Oh well, our waitress was cute anyway.



















On another topic.


Yet these questions and other things such as this seem to matter less and less with every day for the simple reason that I seem to care less and less with every day. I can rememember times when being seperated from people I cared about for even a day seemed to be unbearable. yet I've noticed lately that this is not the case anymore. All the time I seem to care about people a little less, and as such I don't mind not seeing people whom I would have at one time wished to see every day. Some people I haven't seen in what seems like years and it doesn't bother me at all.

If I had to hazard a guess about this, I would say that because I'm so filled with hate and anger I have no room for other things such as love. I'm not sure why this is, I certainly live a life that's better then many people on this planet have the privledge to live. Yet for some reason I'm still enraged by it.

I still do care about some people, but unfortunatly the people I care about most often seem to not care about me in return the same way. IE there are people I care about as more then friends that would never see me as anything better. Maybe this contributes to what I'm talking about.

Maybe I should just learn to accept my place as a person who is incapable of arousing feelings in others. I might be happier.

But oh well, aside from a lobotomy or plastic surgery I guess I'm stuck with what little I have. So until I win the lottery I guess I'll have to contend myself with making other people look worse by comparison.

FUCKING JESUS ASS HICUPS CAN GO TO HELL AND DIE!!!!!!!!

Curtis

It's bad enough when you have nothing better to do on Saturday night but sit home alone and read, but it's just adding insult to injury when there's a large congregation of people standing below your window and two of them seem to have nothing better to do then argue about nothing. Seriously, I could hear every word of the arguement for about 20 minutes and there didn't seem to be any actual point. Then it died down and new people started, then the original two started again. It's 5:30 and still going. Why the hell are people so stupid, don't they realize I need my beauty sleep, and lots of it with a face like this.

Some People Say That I Must Be A Terrible Person, But It’s Not True. I Have The Heart Of A Young Boy In A Jar On My Desk.

After two years in martial arts I've finally achieved one of my goals. To not have to wear a white belt in any of them. It may not sound like a big deal, but I really don't think there are very many people who can say they have rankings in 6 different kinds of martial arts. So I think my killing skills are progressing nicely, my skills in other things...well not so much but at least I can kill my problems away.

Since I've started martial arts I've really wanted to get in a fight, just to see how I'd do. Yet that hasn't happened, no matter how big a jerk I've been. And I know how to be a pretty big jerk, in fact it's one of the only things I know. I mean lots of people I know have been mugged or attacked in some way but nobody ever seems to come after me. Even though I walk home alone at night through some rougher parts of the cities nothing ever happens. I think I really need to start stappling $100 bills to my forehead.

Finally my resume is done and I need to find another job. Especially because Superstore continues to make me fume with more rage then is healthy for any one person to carry. Here's the latest thing they've done which pisses off not only me but numerous other people. New cashiers are being hired at $7.10/hr which is alright, a little bit above minimum wage. That's fine, except that after working there for 2 years now I make $7.10/hr, and some people who have been there a little less time actually make less then the new people. So people who are better at there job are making less money. Does that make any sense to anybody? Am I crazy in believeing that there people have more holes in their head then is strictly necessary? I may only have a degree in history, but even my meager intelligence sees a problem here.

Oh My God, My Hat's Full Of Sick

So tonight was full of things. Like Andy calling, which was kind of cool as I haven't talked to him in a while. Also the night was filled with Spranoes, Thin Blue Line and Fawlty Towers all of which were very entertaining.

Though the other thing was talking about religion.

Now I'm no expert on the subject. Nor am I an expert on anything really which is something I show on a daily basis. But Still, Josh and I were talking about religion briefly so I was somewhat interested. And the thing that strikes me most is most religions inability to deal with their own teachings.

Christianity- Believe in Christ, who preached tolerance, respect and helping people.

Muslimism- Believe similar things but think Muhammad is the answer, not Christ.

Judeism - Same deal but don't think either of the above is the messiah.

Buddhism - Everything is a form of Buddhism, no matter what you might specifically believe.

Ect ect

Most gods seem to preach the same things but in different forms. So why people have killed each other over what are very similar principles for countless years is beyond me. I have no religion so I consider them all dumb, mainly because of the actions of the followers. The people themselves all the time told their followers to be good. Can anybody point to where Jesus, Allah or Buddha said "And kill all desenters"?

Probably not, and that's what sucks. George Bush Jt and Hitler both believed in Jesus and, well we can see the outcome of Hitler's belieifs. And GW's, hopefully it will never get that far.

At least we can see that stupid people take things out of context for their own reasons. I don't think it's a streatch to say that Jesus might not have been okay with the Holocaust, or other things. At least if South Park is right.

In any case I'm probably not somebody to be listening to. For reasons that are more obvious then not. Unless you're retarded, seriously the opening quote is the best thing I can offer, everthing else is pure opinion, and opinion of me, Curtis, the Stupid.




You know what's weird? I think sometimes I might miss some people, I need to work on the whole cold hearted thing a bit more.

Curtos